so much to do.. so little time. and yet here i am, wasting my time on blogging once again. the temptation is just too seductive. haha. i know i should be studying by now.. well, i just can't bring myself to study. im so tired and exhausted today. feeling ku parang ilang araw na aku nagpupuyat.. nag fire drill kami kanina. super saya. kwentuhan at lokohan lang kami sa churchyard. inabutan pa kami ng ulan sa churchyard. buti ambon lang. hehehe. tapos nag music test na rin kami. medyu nagkalat kami.. pero grade namin 10-10-9-10. good enough. hehehe. ok na un.. at least mataas diba? hehe. kaso lang feel ku parang di namin deserve un grade.. mas mganda naman un sa ibang groups.. hay ewan. i'll just try to study nalang ulit. kahit mahirap. sana maging ok na ang lahat. kasi super dami talaga problema these days. well, kahit may problems, tawa parin. ganyan eh.

onga pala, sure na. EK na field trip namin. medyu sawa na ku. pero ok lang rin. masaya naman siguro. confused aku! di ku alam kung sama aku kila shobe or kila gwen. kung pede lang sana hatiin katawan ku para makasama ku sila. eh hindi talaga pede. hindi rin sila pede magsama. kasi.. basta. hay. que sera sera.
another thing. kasama namin third year. hala. di kaya mag away naman un batch namin nyan? hehehe.

1.Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
^ yes
2. Do you eat pork?
^ of course
3. Have you ever vomited in a vehicle?
^ no. not that i know of, anyway.
4. Have you ever beaten up a friend?
^ no
5. Have you ever slapped ur partner?
^ no
6. Have you ever smoked?
^ no. never will.
7. Have you ever been so drunk?
^ yes
8. Have you ever ridden an elephant?
^ no
9. Have you ever felt as if u are gonna die?
^ yes. just recently.
10. Have you ever hugged ur crush?
^ uhm.. i think so. hehe
11. Have you ever played with fire?
^ yes
12. Have you ever cried for the one u love?
^ yes
13. Does he or she know about it?
^ no
14. Have you ever fallen from a motorcycle?
^ no
15. Will u die for the one u love?
^ depends
16. Have you ever missed someone so badly?
^ no. dont think so
18. Have you ever gotten stones thrown at u?
^ no.
19. Have you ever been unfaithful?
^ no
20. Have you ever gotten pepper in ureyes?
^ no. hehe.
21. Have you ever gotten a surprisepresent?
^yes. luv yah guys!
22. Have you ever been on a diet?
^ no. im too thin na nga eh
23. Have you ever stripped someonenaked?
^ no
24. Have you ever taken a picture of urself?
^ yes. i know im vain.
25. Have you ever clubbed till dawn?
^ no
26. Have you ever been in a lift with someone who has body odor?
^ no
27. Have you ever been so angry u felt like killing the person?
^ yes. definitely.
29. Have you ever broken up due to the existence of a third party?
^ no.
30. Have you ever wanted to commitsuicide?
^ increasingly.
31. Have you ever challenged ur teacher?
^ no
32. Have you ever lost ur handyphone?
^ yes. i got it back, though. ;)
33. Have you ever lost in gambling?
^ yes
34. Have you ever been told that u arecute?
^ usually. haha.
35. Have you ever had a crush?
^ of course
36. Have you ever confessed ur feelings?
^ no. not directly, anyway.
37. Have you ever gotten urself into trouble?
^ yes
38. Have you ever lied to ur parents?
^ yes
39. Have you ever been robbed?
^ no
40. Do you really like a guy/girl a lot now?
^ i dont know..? hehe

im pooped and im all stressed out. life is so cruel. on one minute, i was just laughing my head off on a corny joke, and after another, things just suddenly went downhill. grr.. nakakabadtrip lang kasi talaga. but then, who ever said that life is a smooth marble pavement in which we could just easily walk across? Life just has to have those slants and curves in its path. To give challenge to our everyday cityscape lives, perhaps? Or for us to appreciate our blessings..? But then, i thought, I do thank God for all the small blessings i receive. though you can't really stop yourself from not really being contented. but hey, we're all humans. and human souls never quench their thirst for the better. That is the nature of humans. *oh* wish someone could tell me where I went wrong. so i could freakin atone for it. my life is all hardships and sufferings. *sniff* sometimes i would think that i had been cursed for like.. eternity.

something's at rest now.
good.
the rest still aren't though.
argh.
life.
i've been crying everyday since tuesday.
gawd.