There are a lot of things I see or hear, but I’d have to pretend I don’t see or hear them. Being part of a very judgmental society like ours, I need to show that I am strong. I need to show that I am happy. I need to show that I have no problems. I need to be confident. I need to face everyone with a huge smile on my face. I need to make everyone feel how thankful I am that they are willing to accept me. I owe them, don’t I?

When night comes, reality sinks in. I cry myself to sleep and wish I had a choice. I wake up in the morning and try to think happy thoughts. A new day starts, I need to smile.

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If it's not true, why be so sensitive about it, huh? Why feel guilty, or hurt, or offended if it's not even an issue. You are the one who's starting it. YOU are the one who's acting that way. So don't blame others for YOUR insecurities.

See my days are cold without you, but hurting while with you
and though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you, but hurting while with you
and though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you


Baby I dont know why you treatin me so bad (treat me so bad)
you sed you love no one above me
and i was all you had.
and now my heart is beatin for you
I cant stop cryin
and i dont know how I allowed you to treat me this way
and still I stay


See my days are cold without you, but hurting while with you
and though my heart can't take no more i keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you, but hurting while with you
and though my heart can't take no more i keep on running back to you


Baby I dont know why you wanna do me wrong (do me wrong)
see when I'm home, I'm all alone
and you are always gone
and boy you know i really love you
I cant deny
I cant see how you could bring me to so many tears after all these years


See my days are cold without you, but hurting while with you
and though my heart can't take no more i keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you, but hurting while with you
and though my heart can't take no more i keep on running back to you


Oo I just need you (2x)
so sad (2x)
what love could make you do
all the things dat we accept
be the things dat we regret
so all of my ladies (ladies)
tell me come on sing wid me
see wen I get the strength to leave
you - always tell me that you need - me
and im weak cus ima leave - you
and im mad because I love - you
so I stop and think that may-be
you could learn to appreciate - me
then it all remains the same
that - you aint never gonna change
(never gonna change, never gonna change)

See my days are cold without you, but hurting while with you
and though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you, but hurting while with you
and though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you

Baby why you hurt me, leave me and dessert me
boy i gave you all my heart and all you do is tear it up
lookin out my window, knowin that I should go
hate it when I pack bags see something always hold me back

This will be my last post before classes start; because as the school year sets in, work will also start to pile up, too. I think i'll be uber busy starting tomorrow and have no more time to update. So baibai for now. Until next time then.

School Starts June 13.

Ack! It's actually two days before classes start (one and a half to be exact). I know I should be thankful because we're actually kind of late compared to other schools. But then, summer's just about to start in my case! Accckk! I've still got so much things to do! (And I haven't even started to review for entrance exams! Wah!) *cries out loud*

Oh yeah, the one-org-policy is already final, even for us Scouts. I chose Scratch for my one organization. It doesn't mean that I'm a less loyal Scout compared to the others who chose Scouting as their one org. It just means that I'm responsible enough not to leave Scratch in midair without a president. Right? Tell me you agree! Haha. =D Anyways, I've also been running a bit low ever since my Ghoddez friends quit Scouting. It was us from the very start. We were the team. And now that they're gone, I think I've lost half of the zest I had back when we just started. Don't get me wrong, the C.S.I. are great people, they're really fun. But still, it's different.

Last Saturday, we, Taiwan tour group1 went to MOA for a little reunion. (Again! Considering that we just came back a few weeks ago and we already have two reunions. Haha! :D) It was one helluva day for all of us. And me? I was just so happy to actually have a day off from all the stress and have a nice sailing day with good friends, with not a care for the world. We went skating and I'm still bad as ever. Haha. We went to Timezone for a while too then ate at Tokyo Tokyo afterwards. Going home was somewhat sad for me because it just might be the last time we're going to see each other. I miss Taiwan. I miss Federealiw. I miss you guys na. Hopefully, we could still keep in touch even in our busy days ahead. I miss convention too... Gabo, Ahya Enzo, Syd, S Joe, U Joe, Bry, Iper, Rhea, Tekki, Gene, etc. Haha.

Talagang sinulit ko summer ko last summer ko sa Saint Jude. No studies and lots of fun. Medyu bitin pa nga eh. I can't believe summer's over. Just after tomorrow we're all gonna be back in hell. It's my final year so I'm planning to make this year a nice one. I hope this year goes well, besides the fact that I barely know anyone in the classroom. Anyways, tanda na ku! :c Fourth year na! >.<

Back in Action

I'm back people! Aw, I miss the carefree Taiwan days. It had certainly been a fun and memorable three weeks of my summer vacation. Lots of things have happened there. But then, I guess what happened in Taiwan will only remain in Taiwan, and my memory. Coz' I wont share! Haha! However, I'm now back to Manila and I'm shocked with the amount of work I've left undone here in the Philippines. It's been a week already since I've been back and it's only now that I've got a little spare time. Apparently, there had been a LOT of shocking changes in school while I was gone. And I mean really shocking changes. Hmm, let's just say that I don't like the changes. :D