my timeless journeys

4.30.2005

im back!!!

im back. ok. i just came home from a few days at calamba, laguna. hehe. there was heavy traffic on the way to laguna, it took us hours to get there. im getting used to long car rides. we were supposed to stay at monte vista, but i think something went wrong at the arrangements, so we settled at the less-known, yet equally beautiful Wonder Springs. we rented a private pool na family room. the room was so cold! i was practically freezing! hehe. then the spring water was too hot naman so we told the caretaker to mix in warm water. hehe. i swam for five hours a while ago. hehe. we decided to go home at lunch time so that there would be less traffic. it took us less than an hour.
oh yeah, PLTC starts next week. the orientation would be on thursday. im quite excited to see my friends again. it would mean a lot of hard work too.

* i still miss him...*

4.25.2005

sometimes, u tell yourself that your already over someone, you fool yourself, 'no more love'. but the more you convince yourself, the more you get hurt and realize how much you still, and always will, love the one you're trying to forget..

4.22.2005

THE SURVIVAL OF THE U-N-F-I-T-T-E-S-T
"HERE'S to the crazy ones,
the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers,
The round pegs in the square holes,
the ones who see things differently.
They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status quo.
You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing you can't do is ignore them.
Because they change things.
They push the human race forward."

And while some may see them as the crazy ones, I see genius.
Because the ones who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones
who do." - Apple computer


From the very second we take our first breath outside our mother's womb, we are already baptized into the world of the Great Expectation.

As a mere seconds-old member of the human race, we are immediately the subject of scrutiny. High hopes are thick for us to be alive, to be healthy and kicking, to possess ten fingers and toes, and to look like a damn cute baby. Soon, we are expected to walk a straight line, to stand on our own, and to utter a cool word that our parents can brag to their peers about.

Later on, we are compelled to be driven and intelligent, to get into a good school and somehow comprehend the strange vocabularies of Algebra and the mystifying equations of History, Literature and--for God's sake--Balarila, while simultaneously trying to pass the more difficult tests of even tougher subjects--the people around us.

We thus try to find our comfort zones among the chick cliques and the sly guys, at times molding ourselves into closed circles even if it means conforming our wonderfully misshapen mindsets due to the fear of being labeled as an outcast.

And if we manage to pull through, unscathed, through the prickly tangles of school and face the so-called "real life," we then realize that it's pretty much a similar situation, only with different subject matters. Getting a good job, finding "the one true love," to marry and have beautiful children, likewise still pressured by the alarming bells of time to get it all done at the "right age" before you're labeled either a slacker, a dead-ender or (gasp!) an old maid.

Even to be seen at the "right" places, to look good, to be attuned with the trends of the moment, just to once again, be faithful to the bewildering religion of cool. Yet recalling a line in "Almost Famous,"--since when did we put such a high premium on being like everybody else?


The Passionistas
Indeed, in a most Darwinian sense, life is really a survival of the fittest, as we are constantly trying to fit in into boxes, circles, invisible lines drawn around us by a society that is more often cruel than comforting.

Yet therein lies the difference between those who opt for comfort and conformity, and those who choose conviction. The passionistas who stand outside those perceived closed circles to create their own space, to live out their own lives because they have come to understand that believing in themselves and shaping their dreams into realities despite the dictates of society is the mindset that can move the world. To paraphrase Dale Carnegie, it's these very people who choose to play their hearts out with their own little instrument in the orchestra of life who create the most beautiful music.

I've always been attracted to these revolutionists, especially in our 2-degree of separation society of Manila where it's just so much easier to opt for convention rather than creation.

It's inspiring to immerse myself in conversations among musicians, independent filmmakers, painters, photographers, designers, NGOs and writers, perhaps because (in spite of a lack of a steady paycheck), they believe in their art. Be they labeled as "eccentrics" or "rebels," I pick up ideas that form a pastiche of an ideal mindset of what our country's youth can emulate.

They have unconsciously grown out of image concerns, have become averse to apathy, and dignified themselves through their progressive endeavors. In many of these conversations among these avant guardians, I've stumbled upon a common denominator--that in pioneering something innovative in spite of the slings and arrows hurled at them by closed minds, there is always a high risk of failure. Yet that first brave step in pursuing one's own beliefs and talents somehow eventually leads to a greater wisdom and self-understanding that one would never have attained had fear been a factor.


For it is always infinitely better to be a first-rate version of yourse lf than a second-grade version of somebody else. Takes a while to break free from the box, but when it finally happens, the first breath out of it is damn e-x-h-i-l-a-r-a-t-i-n-g.

-Tals Diaz

4.19.2005

my third post today...

i woke up this morning to find that out that it was only 2 a.m. and there was some kind of commotion in the streets. later in the morning, i found out that there was a fire by Rosario street. the whole shop of Eliong got burned. pretty sad. 2 families were burned alive. last i heard, erika, (2nd year, sj) died.
late in the morning, fire broke out again. i captured it on my cell. haha.
when i passed by in the afternoon, the building was practically burned. it was all black. i feel sorry for the building. then ended up feeling sorry for myself for feeling sorry for the building. gets? hehe.
what's more saddening is the story behind their death. i wouldn't enumerate anymore though.

i also found out that we have a new pope. it's all over the news. it struck me that he resembles the actor Sebastian Shaw of star wars. haha. really. you must try looking yourself.

then there's yet another thing. both my sister and my brother are sick with fever today. guess i'll be the next victim. let's just hope i don't get sick next. ;-)

what age do i act?




You Are 9 Years Old
9

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
hay. im a kid at heart. i don't even act my age!

i got myself a japanese name! hehe!

Your Japanese Name Is...




Miki Hosokoawa

miki hosokoawa? kinda hard to read.. but nonetheless, pretty ok. i like it! hehe!

4.18.2005

final fantasy...

this picture is so sad..

'the hardest thing to do, is being next to someone, you know you'll never have...'


ouch. my thumb hurts a lot. haha.
well i finally finished the basics in guitar playing. took me quite a while though.. and i can now play the intro of 'more than words'. yey.

hay. this must be my most boring summer ever. i think i've been eating and sleeping too much. just like yesterday, i slept 13 full hours. gosh. i sometimes wonder why i dont get fat with all the eating and sleeping i've been doing. hehe. i've been downloading GB for 3 days now, and i still couldn't finish it. haha. i had brunch the other day with my uncle. then the next day, i got sick. hehe. well i guess that's what you get for eating too much.. :)

well i think there's nothing else.. :)


sometimes we believe that life has to move on. we reminicse about the past, but realize that good things never last. but somehow and someway, we silently wish.. to hold on to the one we once had.. :-(

4.10.2005

hey. its been quite a while since i've last posted. ok. i finally got this blog back up. (it was down for a couple of days.) it's back. better than ever. hehe. i changed the skin, then the whole layout. and it's not black anymore, unlike the ones i've previously used. it's simple na rin, kasi wala pang laman. hehe. there will be more adjustments when i have the time to fiddle with html.


the past week was a blast.
i had my MMR2 booster on monday. hehe. nothing more to that.
i was grounded on tuesday. no long phone calls, no computer, no tv, no gameboys or playstations.. yadda, yadda, yadda. i won't state the reason anymore, it was just normal parenting stuff. something like 'keep your children disiplined and away from harm ..' thingy. hehe.
wednesday was fine. the phone was broken so i didn't go online. spent the day 'bonding' with my siblings and watching tv.
thursday. can't remember what i did on that day. i think i watched some more tv and movies.
friday. nothing special. just the usual.
saturday. i was out for almost the whole day. (i went traveling.)
sunday. that was yesterday, right?? i went mall-hopping. played arcade in glorietta. then ate at 9.30 p.m. at dencio's in rockwell. the place was practically jam-packed so we waited for a while. it was worth the wait though. food was great. got home pretty late, around 11 p.m. i slept 12 midnight.


im really sleepy today. my cousins went back to the province today. im kinda happy that i won't see them for a year or so. however, im gonna miss them. im feeling kind of grumpy right now. ack. must be the weather. fuck the goddamn sun. excuse me, that was just the effect of the weather.
meanwhile, i'm watching A Cinderella Story on dvd. now if you'll excuse me, i'll go back to drooling over Chad Murray. *bliss*

4.07.2005

witch_april


im looking forward to buying the latest witch issue. ;-) i went to 2bookstores already but still can't find it. im really b-o-r-e-d!!!

4.03.2005

ok. i THOUGHT my mom and me agreed that im going to have my advance math lessons at home. and i'll be studying by myself wothout a teacher. then who the heck is ALBERT NUA?!
i started with cartesian coordinate system a while ago. it was okay. a bit confusing but at least i got the hang of it. i finished the whole topic, plus the cake i was eating. ha! beat that! i still hate math though. hehe. and i wish my mom won't let me go to albert's math lessons. my mom really has a knack in making people do things they don't like. if i knew this sooner, i would have went to the one at state center since it's nearer.
--yesterday--
i woke up 11 a.m. (pretty late, i know) to find that i received 7 text messages overnight. omigosh. don't people ever go to sleep? who wakes up this early on a sunday?! 'the pope passed away yesterday..' oh. so that was what happened. i was shocked. he was the pope like.. eversince i was born. well that's life. people come and go.. or something like that..
i watched How to Deal and Maid in Manhattan again in HBO since i had nothing to do. no offense, Mandy Moore is great, no mistake about that. but i believe that she should find a better script if she really wants to make it to the big screen. and in maid in manhattan, J.lo was great too. and i got to see the Reeves guy (or whatever his name is) in the only time he portrayed as a good guy. hehe.
**happy birthday to my dad and to carolyn! wishing you all the best.**

4.01.2005

tagaytay

this was one of the pictures i took when i went to tagaytay.. ;-) it overlooks the tall volcano..

i hate math...and liars.

i hate M-A-T-H. it makes me go crazy. im supposed to have advance math lessons today at the state center. but i forgot. and it was supposed to be the very first meeting. haha. thanks to my short term memory. now my mother is really angry cause i can't attend anymore. and she's trying to find me another math teacher now. oh gosh..

i hate L-I-A-R-S too. they're like.. the lowest forms of creatures that ever existed. they should be banished from the land! no, maybe that's too heartless.

shobe char, hindi ko rin maintindihan kung bakit niya laging ginagawa yun. siguro gusto lang niya yung feeling na naaawa yung ibang tao sa kanya. o kaya gusto niya yung mas marami siyang pinagdadaanang hirap kaysa sa atin. hayaan nalang natin siya. maybe we should just try to understand, we must trust that he would tell us when he's ready.