"Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have..."

I guess I'm not that hard to get over. It's just me anyways. So I'll say goodbye now. I know it's for the best anyways, for both our sakes.

I wish you all the best. I hope you'll smile even more than you did when you were with me. I still wish we had the chance to talk maybe clear up some things that we never had the chance to talk about, or at least give some closure to what beautiful times we had.

Thanks for being a huge part of my life. Thanks... a million.

Scouting?

Summer vacation has started already, yet I've still been going to school for two weeks now. Oh, dont get all those wrong ideas, I don't attend the summer class. Nor do I plan on having them. Well, I've been busying myself with the Scouting Farewell Party for days for the Seniors, and today, the Scouting-DBMC-CAT Graduation Rites that is to be held tomorrow. Never in the history of Saint Jude had there been a perfomance during this day. So I don't understand why we have to perform this year. It's been really tiring, to learn one dance after another. One for the Farewell Party, and another for the Graduation Rites. I hope we don't screw up like the otehr day.
Hmm, the farewell party was, well, honestly speaking, very disappointing and boring. Parties are supposed to be fun. And ours just wasn't. It was a complete disaster. Except for the food, I think. Haha. There were plenty food! (Thanks Tiff!) Haha. Anyways, what's done is done naren. Maybe we're just never meant to organize parties. :D
We, the undergrads, will also have our results of our preliminaries tomorrow, after the Grad. So we decided to go to MoA afterwards, to celebrate, or sulk about the news. Haha. *I hope I pass.* Heeehee! Yay! MoA, here we come!

I'm back. Hopefully.

Hmm, it's been a really long time, hasn't it? Since I've made a proper post, I mean. Well, I've been really busy. Third year in Saint Jude must be, by far, the most hectic year of all. Everyone says so, too. There are always so many things to be done. Projects, presentations, group works, plant visits, a hundred chinese vocabularies... name it, we've done them all. Hmm, enumerating all of those would take a whole day. Oh yes, the memories! Speech Choir, Chem magic, all those sleepy days, Yen moments, RnJ...
Take away all the stress and tears, this year has been a memorable one for me. More on the positive side. With my share of memories to carry with me in the years to come. Threebeerrific had been the best. They're the ones who had kept me sane throughout this crazy year. They're my pillars of faith whenever I feel like lazying it out. I find solace when with them, thinking that all of us are going through the same things, the same hardship kako. *not really* This year had been life-changing for me, character building, or whatevers. Haha! Basta, I will really miss Threebee. Yun na yun. Yung mga kakulitan, asaran, corny jokes, at kung anu anu pang mga ginagawa naten. Haha! Though we're often hailed the noisiest and the most unruly, we're still lovable as well. Db? Db? We'll be having our class outing. Too bad my parents didn't allow me to go. Oh well. There will always be other times. :D

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.


You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:

smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

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“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”

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“Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to him forever. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this.”