i'm always almost too close to you, always too close. and it scares me, like hell. it's not a bad thing really. but it scares me to be this close again, to be so close as to falling in love. i'm afraid of that attachment, that need of always wanting to be next to that someone, to want to feel secure, to feel loved, and be of worth. despite all these, it scares me most that no matter what conditioning i do, i can't seem to contain myself as i had promised.