up until now, i kept blaming myself for this unfortunate twist of fate.
i kept saying "this can't be, we've known it from the start but it doesn't mean it isn't true, because even if you turn this world upside down, everyone i know knows it is... or was...."

its been countless nights, damned restless nights, couldn't find an answer that could lead me to what i did wrong. but it pushed me to a conclusion that me, myself thought of what i should tell myself the next time i would have restless nights again.

"I WANT TO KNOW WHAT'S MORE TO THIS LIFE AND I WON'T KNOW THAT IF I WON'T LET HIM BE HAPPY..." and this didn't came from any book i've read, i haven't encountered this line from anything from the boobtube, this didn't came from somebody else's mouth, this came from me, as genuine as it could be. as true as these words could be. i hope you're happy....