yesterday was the PLTC orientation. it was ok, but a bit tiring. i have homework to do for monday. torture would start next week. *sigh* i guess i would have to bid an early goodbye to my summer vacation. seeing my friends again made me feel better. and the thought of having the training with them made me feel loads better.

im now reading the book that i borrowed from charlene yesterday. it's entitled 'away laughing on a fast camel' or something like that. i think it's the fifth installment of louise rennison's books. the book is a real comedy.

im also currently addicted to kingdom hearts. i finally reached agrabah. hehe. so addicted...

Sometimes I think everything happens for a reason. Yet other times I think it silly and foolish to believe such a thing. I'm never quite sure which I'd prefer, a reason for the thing which boggles the mind (because it'll still boggle the mind) or no reason at all. Should I just adapt some kind of acceptance of the idea that things just "are the way they are"? As my life continues I expect to change my mind a hundred more times. I may never be sure of whether or not there's a reason or if things really just "are" but whatever it is, it is. I'm not going to dwell or analyze any further. I've done that for much to long.

Things will be whatever they will be, reason or no reason.

I wish things wouldn't end sometimes. I hold on to things longer than most. Endure more than most. Give my heart to people that I want to think deserve it. And I keep holding on, believing that one day, one day, I'll see my efforts were not in vain. . But I'm going to have to stop that. i have to stop being so careless with my heart. I've only got one after all.